Sometimes a simple song is just what you need.

It’s easy to put a smile on your face for the world to see.
BUT…inside your screaming, your crying, your just not smiling.

We lie to ourselves thinking we’re “fine”. That we’re simply OK.

Lately this song has been my exact prayer. I find myself singing this song thru out the day.
Sometimes a simple song can be the answer you were seeking.

This is my prayer. I’m desperate for You Lord.

Hope this song touches you guys too. I cant help but to get teary while singing it.

I need you more – Bethel Live

I need You more, more than yesterday
I need You Lord, more than words can say
I need You more, than ever before
I need You Lord
I need You Lord

More than the air I breathe
More than the song I sing
More than the next heartbeat
More than anything
And Lord, as time goes by, I will be by your side
Cause I never want to go back to my old life.

We give you the highest praise
We give you the highest praise
We give you the highest praise 

Who You Are by Jessie J

I stare at my reflection in the mirror…
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf…
“no, no, no, no…”

To lose it all in the blur of the start!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It’s okay not to be okay…
Sometimes it’s hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising,
Just be true to who you are!

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah!
The more I try the less is working yeah yeah yeah
‘Cause everything aside me screams, “no, no, no, no…”

To lose it all in the blur of the start!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,

It’s okay not to be okay…
Sometimes it’s hard, to follow your heart.
But tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising,
There’s nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, he goes, fake shows
Like “wow”, just go, and leave me alone!
Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight,
With a smile…
That’s my own!

To lose it all in the blur of the start
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It’s okay not to be okay…
Sometimes it’s hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising,
Just be true to who you are!

Be YOU.

No matter how careful you are…people will talk.
What you see is different from what people may interpret .
JUST BE YOU.
Some will believe you and some wont.
This is part of life.
The world will always judge no matter what.
Let them say what they want to say.
Just as people are judging you. People are judging them.

It’s not the easiest thing to hear, but friends…keep your head up.
Be strong. Be courageous. Be you.
You are loved no matter what.

you should know…

Just because I don’t open up right away doesn’t make me cold.
Just because I’m blunt or real doesn’t make me a bitch.
Just because I smile a lot doesn’t mean I’m okay.
Just because I dress nice doesn’t make me spoiled.
Just because I like to have a good time doesn’t make me less of a Christian.
Just because I don’t tell you my problems doesn’t mean I don’t have any.
Just because I don’t ask for help doesn’t mean I don’t want it.
Just because I don’t mention my family problems doesn’t mean I have a perfect family.
Just because I wear makeup doesn’t mean I think I’m pretty.
Just because I come off confident doesn’t mean I actually am.
Just because I tell you my opinion doesn’t mean I’m judging you.
Just because I can go on vacations doesn’t make me rich.
Just because I don’t ask for prayer doesn’t mean I wouldn’t like to be prayed for.
Just because I have a lot of guy friends doesn’t mean I wouldn’t like to have more girl friends.
Just thought you should know…

(Source: mikyma)

What is right and What is wrong…

Why is it that I always find myself making excuses for others?
Why do I blame myself for their faults?
Why can’t people just be REAL and HONEST?
Why can’t people just say whats on their minds?
Why do people ignore whats right in front of them?
Why are people so scared to try?
Why do  people give up easily?
Why not take risks?
Why do people complicate matters?
Why is it so hard to say what we’re really thinking/feeling?
Why do people just judge right from the start, without even getting the truth?
Why do people take advantage of life’s precious gifts.
Why do people always want more?
Why are people never satisfied?
Why do people complain?
Why are people unappreciative of what they already have?
Why do we look past the moments?
Why do people forget what is important?
Why can’t people just be content?

We’re all such simple human beings, yet we complicate things.

I wonder if people can go a week, no a day without complaining.
No complaints…only praises.

Done….

….wanting something that I cannot have.
….settling.
….trying to please everyone around me.
….running away from the truth.
….working like a mad woman.
….overthinking.

I’m just gonna sit. pray. wait. trust.
That’s all I can do for now. And from there, we’ll see.

 

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

I’ve been confused about a certain decision for the past few weeks. Maybe a month.
I knew the only way to find an answer was to pray.
In the beginning I didn’t want to pray all that much.
A selfish part of me just wanted to make my own decision, but when God knows what He wants, He’ll own you until you see it.

First it started with praise songs sung at church and in my car.

Then the messages from Church.

Then from a wedding.

And lastly, my dream.

I knew what the decision had to be beforehand, but I just wanted to be certain.

Everything started to crumble down, and I knew God was trying to tell me something.

I know that God put me in this situation for a reason.

Its opened up my eyes to a lot of things.

Thank you Lord for answering my prayer.

I will only grow stronger from all my life lessons.

Strangers, again

While watching this video, I couldn’t but help to think…”THIS IS SOOOO TRUE!”
Everything that was said and shown in this video, I could relate.
Towards the final stages of the relationship, you wonder “what am I fighting for when the other person doesn’t give a crap?”
But part of you hopes for change. Hope for the better.

For me, I always hoped that things would change. That the person I first fell in love with would come back. That the person he was becoming was just a phase and that he would turn back to the way he was. But I was wrong. He was never the same.

Whenever we argued, I was the one that always came back. I was always the one that tried hard to fight for it to work.
But sooner or later you realize that it won’t work out and you gotta let them go.  (which is one of the hardest things to do)

Every relationship will be different, but the stages are the same.
But the end result will always be different.

Every relationship that doesn’t work out is like a stepping stone that will just bring you closer to who you’re supposed to be with

and for that be thankful.

funky monkey.

For the past couple weeks, I’ve been in this strange funk.
I feel like I’m in a battle with myself.

I feel angry, sad, alone, frustrated, empty.

No matter how much I change. No matter how much I try, one way or the other…ITS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH.

Mentally, emotionally, and physically…I am exhausted.

I am confused.

I hate being in this funk because its not like me to be like this.

Lord, I need you. Be my strength. Be my protection. Be my everything.

Yet, I’m better near to you.

He and I had something beautiful
But so dysfunctional, it couldn’t last
I loved him so but I let him go
‘Cause I knew he’d never love me back

Such pain as this
Shouldn’t have to be experienced
I’m still reeling from the loss,
Still a little bit delirious

Near to you, I am healing
But it’s taking so long
‘Cause though he’s gone
And you are wonderful
It’s hard to move on
Yet, I’m better near to you.

You and I have something different
And I’m enjoying it cautiously
I’m battle scarred, I am working oh so hard
To get back to who I used to be

He’s disappearing
Fading Steadily,
I’m so close to being yours
Won’t you stay with me
Please

Near to you, I am healing
But it’s taking so long
Though he’s gone
And you are wonderful
It’s hard to move on

Near to you, I am healing
But it’s taking so long
‘Cause though he’s gone
And you are wonderful
It’s hard to move on
Yet, I’m better near to you.